Man, but July just oozed by in a protracted mental fog. One of the huge blocks to regular bloggery was the incredible 12-Day Headache. It got slightly better at times, and it got worse at times, but the “Ten Kilos of Lead Atop Me Head” pain just would NOT go away!
It made working the three jobs worse, despite my adamant determination to not miss more than a day’s work from the para or grocery jobs. I couldn’t even consider missing a day from the professor job, because summer semester runs at twice the speed, and we had no wiggle-room in our schedule for covering everything that needed to be covered.
As before, putting thoughts together was like stringing beads while wearing heavy ski mittens. But this time I didn’t have a handy excuse, other than, “I’ve had a headache for over a week now,” Being in pain means not sleeping well, and increases stress, and all three of these factors combine into a viscous circle.
- I tried acetominophen (paracetamol), in addition to my daily naproxen sodium that I take for arthralgia.
- I tried soaking in a hot bath in a dim room.
- I stood under a strong shower and let it beat upon my head.
- I laid down with cold compresses.
- I took two-hour afternoon naps because I could not keep my eyes open.
- I took a vigourous 1-mile walk and gardened, and avoided afternoon naps in hopes of getting better sleep.
- I had a hot toddy at bedtime.
- I ate cold ice cream to the point of “brain-freeze”.
- I massaged my head.
- I vigorously brushed my hair.
- I took Imitrex, my migraine medication.
- I did Tai Chi Chih-like stretches.
- I layed with my feet higher than my head.
- I massaged my feet.
I thought to myself, “This can’t keep going on! I can’t live like this.” But of course it can, and people do.
Initially, I kept saying, “I’ll do that tomorrow when I feel better.” But the mañana list kept getting longer and longer. After a week, I finally came to the grips that for whatever reason, I was going to have to deal with The Damn Leaden Burden of Pain as a chronic issue, whether long-term or short-term. It forced me to pare down my Daily To Do lists to the merest essentials:
- This morning I will shower and shampoo.
- After a nap, I must write at last 75% of an exam.
- I will eat something nutritious for dinner before working tonight.
- I will set out a complete change of clothes before I go to bed.
What hellish demands upon my time and energy! That was of course, a day when I wasn’t teaching a class, just doing the morning para job and a few hours of stocking groceries after tea.
Oh crap, I forgot one:
5. I will refill my daily pill minder.
You know you’re exhausted when dosing out a few bedtime pills is too much of a bother.
Finally I gave up and went to my GP. “I’m exhausted. I’m even falling asleep at work, and at dinner, even though I’m sleeping seven to ten hours a night, with two hours naps during the day. My joints and muscles ache. I keep getting bruises, and cuts heal slowly, and my gums bleed when I brush my teeth. My hands and feet are cold. I’m sensitive to light, my ears ring most of the time, and I’m having dizzy spots. I get disoriented, and have the worst mental fogginess, despite taking my ADHD meds. I have dry mouth, and am thirsty all the time and drinking two or more liters of water a day. AND I’VE HAD THIS HORRIBLE HEADACHE FOR TWELVE DAYS.”
I mentioned a family history of diabetes. The doc sent me down to the lab for blood draws, also checking my thyroid and some other factors. Additionally, he gave me a heavy-duty pain reliever that I took when I went to bed. The next day was much better, although I could still feel headache lurking around the edges, so I took another pill the next night.
The Damn Leaden Burden of Pain finally went away. My blood tests all came back normal, thankfully. I don’t know what caused such an intractible headache, but I sure hope it doesn’t return. Or if it does, I’ll smack it down a lot quicker with the pain med. The pain-exhausted-stress cycle gets so hard to break.